Weight: 97.3 kgs
“I do not find it easy to talk to people I don’t know.” – Jane Austen, Pride and Prejudice
My Life Goal, ze Weight
A small weight gain…I’ve eaten a lot of chocolate raisins this week…it was either eat them or use them to kill G with…so I ate them…a big thanks to Mel for telling me to either eat them or bake with them, that’s why I love my friends!
Shake Your Booty
I started off the week really well and my exercise slowly became non existent towards the end of the week; it was a pretty exhausting week for me so I gave up exercising or even thinking about writing a blog post and just slept….or ate chocolate raisins.
On instagram this week, I shared something really personal around depression so thought I would copy and paste it over here on the blog –
Life isn’t easy…some people are sprinkled with gold dust and it feels like everything is just dropped in their lap with minimal fuss and ease, while others work their arse off and at times it feels like with every step forward you end up taking ten back.
My partner suffers from depression and at the moment he’s in a really bad place…anyone who lives with someone with depression will understand what this is like; the tears, the anger, the hurt…and that’s just me! The strongest people in this world are the ones fighting depression every day, they are not weak. The weak ones are the people that don’t understand or take the time to understand mental illness. I hate it when people say “just pick up the phone and call someone to show that you care”, honestly this just shows you don’t understand mental illness at all…some people just like to fight things by themselves, everyone is different and deals with mental illness in their own way.
There is nothing to be ashamed about if you’re suffering from mental illness, you are not alone!
So here is a photo of me in a sunny yellow field of wild flowers from last year…2016 hasn’t gone to plan for us at all but we are just taking every day as it comes. And yes I’m having a blurgh day…sometimes it’s best to share these days as guess what, we all have them and life isn’t all rainbows and unicorns. If I had to sum up how I feel today…I couldn’t be bothered to post a photo of a beautiful door and I tried! Tomorrow is another day; now off to wash some dishes.
^^ So I should point out that this wasn’t a call for help but just for people to have a better understanding on what it’s like to live with someone that’s suffering from depression as people don’t talk about depression enough and it’s everywhere and nobody should be ashamed.
Hells Bells..most people will find out that they have a family history of the disease when they get diagnosed…and it is a disease…there is no quick cure. Don’t get me started on anti-depressants, they help in certain ways but fuck me the side effects…you have no idea on what they do to a poor soul that’s taking them…the dreams are so vivid and disturbing hence they lack a peaceful nights sleep. The dreams that I’ve heard from G, various work colleagues and friends would give you goosebumps!
I don’t just share the happy things in my life on this blog…I share the real life bits and pieces as well so that people realise life is meant to include all the ups and downs along the way (my life isn’t perfect but then nobody has the perfect life; I’m just sick of the social media mentality that everything has to be fucking perfect…I’m sure the younger generation are going to suffer from anxiety related issues and probably already do)…there are no fucking unicorns out there so wake up and sniff the fucking peonies people!
Can you tell my favourite word this week was “FUCK”….fuck, fuck, fuck, FUCK!!
What I’m Up Too…
Not a lot at this stage…I’m going to relax this weekend hence I have my active wear on (my head hurts from this week)…we’re currently dog sitting a One Eyed, Four Teeth Yorkie that is on anxiety pills and I’ve just found out, that loves looking at herself in the mirror.
And tomorrow night, I’m off to see Tom Jones lives at the Bedford Park concert…so I can tick Tom off my bucket list…woohoo!
If you want to go to New Zealand, then make sure you check out Thai Airways website quickly as they currently have fares down to NZ this month and all the way through to 2017 for £350 return…and £1800 in business class! Just obviously not over the christmas period but this deal is amazingly good so if you have ever thought of visiting NZ, now is the time to go go go! **EDITED** Apparently this was an error fare so the deal may now not be showing!
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So what’s all the gossip?